My Blog My Identity

This is me the person behind the blog , the beating heart warts and all , I share in order to help myself and other people.Whilst on twitter my picture is of my late cat that’s because of my blog so it’s all emcompassing.

So cat photo on twitter or not it really doesn’t matter it’s really at the end of the day words that matter.My words are very important and I struggle to get them out at times and plain and simply it’s my autism .I don’t mind the disability not in the slightest it has list me friends who didn’t understand me.This was before the official diagnosis.

My blog is very special to me it’s a testament to my survival and that’s what I feel and having a diagnosis is part of my personality.I am now pulling all parts of my life together and sorting out things that should have been sorted in my childhood.

I’m am learning to roll with my brain and jumping about in a conversation or my writings is just part of me in this world.

I put my heart into everything I’m very much heart thoughts and deeds , I go above and beyond .I’m no matyr but I’m just a genuine human to the core , I help where I can and I love a happy conclusion though it’s not always so.

I seek my minds eye it soothes my heart and head and soul, I’m slowly knitting myself back together but I can’t actually knit.A cup of tea steers me through the day 

Cats Have Their Own Agenda

Cats I really do love cats they’re my favourite pet so much so that they’re my only pet, despite being allergic to cats I keep them.My allergy is lessened because I grew up with a cat but I didn’t know I was allergic then.

Cats have their own agenda like Jack sitting on the sky remote and fast forwarding to the conclusion of the program.

That time you changed the door and installed a new cat flap and they weren’t impressed especially as they really prefer the front door.

You just know in your heart of hearts you shouldn’t have watch the Shining with your cat.

Cats are the only entertainment you need to watch , try anything and they know it.

You save cardboard boxes just for them even though your efforts are weak in your cats eyes.

Cats dramatic divas that they are will control every aspect of your life , really you’re their servant.You are at their servant and they will never let you forget that you’re further at their beck and call.

You’ve fed the cat , played with cat , talked to the cat yet you find yourself reasoning with the cat that you’re doing the best for them.

Cats they rule 

Pushing Myself Forward

I think you have to push yourself forward a lot of the time ,especially when it comes to the ice grips of Winter and you want nothing better than just stick the fire on and never leave the house again till Spring.But alas the only way to get out there is to well get out and actually meet people  , it is an irksome job practically if you have Autism as you might not wish to tell people and I am. Mostly I am getting good responses and some people are a little perplexed as they might not understand the condition.

In telling people you have Autism I truly believe it spreads awareness and I am all about awareness , I am just branching back into singing and I am going to try for 2 choir that require audition ~ yikes . I shall only go to one of them but I am going to give it my best shot as that is what you need to do in life.Now I am fully aware that despite me being able to sing that I might not get into either of these and yes I will feel crushed but no more so than constantly getting picked last for rounders.


You can not make people like you or bend to your will that is impossible , I am me and that is all I can be as I settle into my unique character that is me. I haven't gown an extra eye since I had been diagnosed but I can see with a certain nuance of clarity that how different I was , a joyful misfit that was just one step out of phase with the popularity of the moment.

But oh so happy to be !

Why Self Resilience Is Important

Why self resilience is important because not only is it empowering but it’s a life skill as life isn’t always a smooth ride.

Emotional resilience refers to one's ability to adapt to stressful situations or crises. More resilient people are able to "roll with the punches" and adapt to adversity without lasting difficulties; less resilient people have a harder time with stress and life changes, both major and minor.

And being autistic this isn’t easy I feel I’m saying that rather a lot lately but it’s true.Especially  as I come up against different situations in life especially after going back to work after 6 months off.

‪Yesterday I had my headphones on ( I could still hear outside world ) I crossed looking round me before I did to enter the narrow lane done which I work and then started walking up the lane to which a car beeped me aggressively. There was no where else to go except walk down the middle of the narrow lane as the cars tend to park on the narrow stretch of pavement. The driver then proceed to gesture about my headphones etc shaking head etc then finally when I got done the lane he was relating to his visitor about my headphones again gesturing this . He approached me saying about the headphones saying I should have been on the path , ( where you couldn’t fit due to the cars parking on the path due to the narrowness of the lane. 

I said this etc but some people are so narrow and blinkered in the views they just like to hear the sound of their own voice.

Now I know people can be in a world of their own with headphones but I have mine at such a level I hear the outside world.

I wear mine because of my autism it’s an unseen disability ~ and I didn’t even say this to him ( I didn’t even get the chance )

You might think it’s just one of those things but for me it nearly sent me home as it riles me emotionally.

Now my come back at people is just to call them a very silly person in such incidents.

Afterwards I was floored and emotionally upset but luckily I had work colleagues to pick me up.

And I mentioned it on line as well where I was offered sage advice and I’m grateful of that.

Being autistic I cannot necessarily articulate myself when I’m faced by irksome folk but I’m learning and it’s part of my self resilience.

Why Your Cat Needs An Instagram Account

A cat the 4 legged friend though it one letter from being a friend and more likely to be a fiend on many occasion than a fiend but a friend they always truly are. From apologising to getting the wrong sort of  cat foot to accepting that your cat is more popular on instagram than you are then cat ownership is here to stay.Fear not I am not jealous of my cat being more popular on instagram it is the modern world , I have to instagram on behalf of my cat , it's a blog think it is a blog identity , it is perfectly cat bonkers and harmless.

You won't see me referring to my cat as my furbaby it is not a term I like and it should be consigned to the same place as hollibobs and haul ( insert silent scream )


I know I know my cat can't actually instagram but you know it is part of my identity and now Jack has to be the Ninjakillercat as Rollie is no longer with us and Rollie so totally would have owned instagram!

Jack has very much adjusted to being on his own and wrapping everyone round his err paws ? and he has more toys than he knows what to do with and will chase stuff then tiredly flop down in a heap and paw them with muted enthusiasm.

And Jack is getting a few strange messages on Instagram including ones about fitness but the think he is he’s been catfished.People are using cat profiles then changing them sneaky ! so catfishing is not just a human problem! Pop over here to see his new instagram account