My Friends Have Got This

My friends have got this ...

My friends have got me , my true friends that is and I’m going to fight back and I’m going to fight back doing what I want.I get people don’t want sadness in their lives hell did you think I do  ?!

I spent 4 years literally making sure I didn’t fall down the rabbit holes and everything thing I do is my therapy.People deal with things in their way and you might think I should steer away from social media and perhaps be a hermit.

I’m not going to be cross or angry at people in them thinking I should be living my life like a hermit.Instead I’ll tut and think their loss if they can’t share my view of joy of the world.You can’t force people to like you and neither can you always like people yourselves it’s a human thing but I’m always respectful of people and I’ve empathy , empathy is what makes use understand people’s condition.Now I’ll admit I struggle with empathy at times but I do have it , it’s just part of my self journey to find out why I’m wired the way I am.

Yes I’ve feel like I’ve had the joy sucked out my universe it’s funny how stuff dies that to you and I immensely take stuff to heart more than I really should but that’s just me.I am resilient but I like company then again I don’t like company , don’t be afraid to contact me as long as you have got something nice to say and are bearing tea .

Yes, yes  I wish I could catch a break but I’m focusing on me and my family ~ sounds kind of selfish yeah but it’s called selfcare.

And you know mental health isn’t an Olympic sport if it was then surely I’d have a medal or 2 by now.

What saves , what stops me screaming out ~ my photography my love of architect , my family oh and cups of tea.

You might me thinking I shouldn’t be sharing pictures and that I shouldn’t be having a life but it’s my recovery my selfcare.

But I’m living again there are more days where I do feel like myself and I shouldn’t be worried if someone is thinking I shouldn’t be taking pictures or not.

This is me.

This is my line.

I’m in the process of creating a garden oasis ( not a rock band ) there is a rock garden or 2 in there though , it’s amazing what stabbing the soil does for the soul , I assure you there’s no body under my patio!

Buying Randomly On EBay

Doesn’t everyone love a bit of sunshine I know it certainly makes me feel better and it certainly makes me want to unleash my inner Alan Titchmarsh.I realise that makes me sound as if I’m possessed by Alan Titchmarch ( I’d love that ) I’m attempting to do the garden up on a budget and I’m very much buy now explain later type of person less chance of a” no “ though my husband is unlikely to say “no” .So doing up the garden on a budget is hard yes even though I’m a blogger I don’t think I’ve ever done one review of a garden item. I’m all about what I can find myself or buy cheaply like my garden pots which should have been £69 but I got them for £25. Back to the EBay story I decuded to buy a stone sink on line as I’m trying to fill my garden and make it how I want.

The stone sink cost me £15 and we had to go to another village to fetch it the village of Repton which was once the heart of Mercia and is a very ancient village . I had to scale a gate and it was like my husband was launching the titanic , a top tip is don’t wear fit flops to go fetch something of a reasonable weight just in case you have to scale a gate.

Well of course when I was there I saw some old stones and Mill stone and thought “ ooooooh “ I think my husband was nodding and we went to fetch them yesterday.

You can buy all sorts on EBay it’s amazing , well of course Ebsy can have a dark side as well as I was recently trolled on there but on the whole my eBay dealings are ok , I wish the fees were a little lower though.I am doing the very best with my garden as I don’t have endless pots of money to through at . The term show garden is often banded about and show gardens can be many things though mine isn’t Chelsea standard yet.

Time In London

To live your life to be scared of what others think or what people perceive is no life at all. As they say be yourself as everyone else is taken a thousand people can thunder past and you’ve no knowing what their happiness ,joy or sorrow is.

I’m never going to stop learning I’m never going to stop doing what I do or explain myself you get to know me you see what makes me tick.

So I see the street life of London the day , the time is relevant you don’t need to know even the temperature of the day though the photo may tell you that but then again maybe not.

Life is a complexity life’s a mystery and it’s one to be enjoyed , you’ll not find me in a department store staring at handbags that’s not me. You’ll find me breaking free running away from the throng of the pack. I’m not a retail magpie I need space and architecture offers me, that it offers me structure (see what I did there )

I take something mundane and ordinary and elevate it and I do this every single time I use a camera or my smart phone.My photography is always in my mines eye if I see it with my own eyes then I frame the shot in the mind and then snap the moment is captured.That moment can be released to me again when I see the image and the memories, thoughts and feelings come back.

Words I Never Thought My Hairdresser Would Say

Words I never thought my hairdresser would say does rather read like click bait you want to roll your eyes at and curse yourself for clicking through to.

When you go to the hairdressers which I don’t have to say I go to very often and when I’m there  I’m always poised to play:

Hairdresser bingo 

“You going or holiday or been etc”

“Which way to you wearing your parting ?”

“Thought about a colour ?”

“ That’s nice”

“ oooh you don’t say “

“ Want your eyebrows trimming “

They said this to my husband and he’s never been back to the barbers / hair place since.

“Is that ok ?*”

*Showing you the back of head the only time you see it.

If not had my hair don’t for well over a year and this this last year my hair was very short

So bitting the bullet I had my hair done and I solelmy promise I will not cut anymore knots out my hair and that’s a Brownie promise at that so it’s binding!

I don’t over chat as that’s not me I’d rather be silent but I’ll be polite when I’m talked to.But you know what my hairdresser was really intuitive and older despite her young years. Often we do not give the young people the credit they need and deserve. So what did my hairdresser say to me that was so profound and grounding ?

“ If you think you’ve learnt everything then you just need to give up!”

Wise words indeed...

Dragonfly Card By Jane Inspired By Art

I’m really feeling the Arts and Craft copper vibe at  the moment and it’s magical and one day I’ll get over to Stonywell which is an Arts and Crafts hub its the bees knees of arts and crafts. I’ve recently visited Canons Ashby and it’s old , it’s quaint ,it’s intriguing it’s unique it’s very much me.

Uniqueness is what I see and how I capture it is very important to me as in particular my photography is a mental health release.Having anxiety doesn’t mean you don’t leave the house for me it’s the opposite as I know what I’m going to but don’t know what treasures I’ll uncover.

While wandering round Canons Ashby I happened upon this copper screen and immediately the Dragonfly struck me. I knew just the person to send this to and I challenged Jane to make a card inspired by it.

And Jane didn’t disappoint and the crafted this  utterly stunning card and sent it to me which was a lovely surprise.