Forged In Fire

When your shunned by own father it is very hard , hard to move on hard to see other families laughing and joking and having fun. It's always been that way even when I did had a father in my life because I felt I should have been a boy , never feeling good enough for my dad , I have to be careful as he is still living but he doesn't care and never will. Sometimes with families there is no olive branch there can be , never will be it's not worth trying , I have no brothers and sisters and quite frankly I wouldn't want to gave had a sibling to endure what I did. I really always do try and see the best in people but that's how I am forged.

Forged

I am forged in fire you can say , if my mother had gone to a woman's refuge I think my life would have taken a much safer and easier path. Forged to take control of my emotions and not cry and this is something I still have trouble with as to cry then and sometimes now to me was a weakness of emotion. There was no social services for me no teacher I could turn to I was muddled up through my GcSes and A levels  , violence should never be part of anyone's life. If I am upset I have to reset and this can take days , I'm conscious that people don't what to read sad from me I'm not here for people to either have empathy or feel pity.  

Coping 

I am coping everyday of my life by putting all of my trouble in a box but otherwise how would I cope , I've my own family to take care of just the three of us. To me my son has one grandad my husband's dad and my own grandad his great grandad was more of a grandad to him than my own dad was . I'm not here to rubbish people but I don't talk about my dad now I just don't have a dad it is as if he is aur brushed out of existence . You might tell me to try again but no I take take personal threats against me lightly and knowing what I grew up in I'd rather just let it be.

Hoping 

You see I'm hopeful for the future ooh not with my dad I'll let him be a miser of his own stony cold heart , I am hopeful for me for the love I have to give and for my family unit just the three of us . Putting down emotional roots is what I'm doing and I've never done that before in my whole life , you'll laugh when I tell you that when my parents were divorcing my dad wanted custody. Custody you say why that's natural to want custody but wait the custody wasn't for me it was for the cat!!!!

So you see I am forged in fire but with a heart of love .

"The moment I stopped living up to everyone else's expectations.

 

I lived up to my own ."

The One Where Alexa Tries To Break Me

I love my social media I really do but sometimes it has a side to it I don't like , the side where it can be directorial imposing the latest social media rules onto you . I mean I don't vlog I have dabbled yes but it's not a medium I excel in even though I'm quite quirky when I do it . You see blogging and social media gives me the confidence to do stuff I ordinally would not to. I blog in my own way , I tweet in my own way , I Facebook in my own way I do things by own way , I'm not against advice ~ advice which is constructive.

I learnt many years ago to my cost that everyone is not a social media luvvy and that's ok there is enough of us blogger s, vloggers and social media gurus to make the world go around . I do what I do and you do what you do simple as .   

I'm trying to get to Alexa to listen to me and it isn't working.

" Alexa play Butterfly by A~ Ha "

Alexa " Here's Butterfly by Cliff Richard "  

No Alexa play " A~ Ha Butterfly "

Alexa " Here's a medley of songs by Wolf Alice "

" Alexa Noooooooooooo"

Who is Wolf Alice ?

"Alexa play A~ Ha Butterfly "

Alexa " playing the lost boy in New York Simon and Garfunkel "

Arrrrrgh

I have patience of a saint I truly have after all as I grew up in the 1980s and owned a Spectrum 48 K< Rich.

Owning a Spectrum 48 K you learnt patience by loading the games onto your Spectrum 48 k you loaded the tapes whilst listening to that distinctive sound only made by loading Spectrum games. 

What ever you do if you own a Alexa don't ask it to sing to you ...

I'm not sure who is young to break first me or Alexa ...

Life's all about Fluffing Your Pillows

Life is all about fluffing your new pillows !


Only day ago I was trying to get to sleep and Mr T was snoring but snoring just at the point when I was trying to drift off , now I snore myself I have been told but I seem to snore later on. On the night in question I just had enough and just went off and went downstairs. Snoring can have a real impact upon your life yesterday I was like a functioning zombie. I as a snorer there isn't really a lot I can take  as I have asthma but Mr T we are trying the various snoring sprays and so far they really are not doing a great deal.

Change your sleeping height

Pillows for me always seem to die and I don't really like to spend to much money on them as I know I will have to change them at some near point. I have to sleep with 2 pillows and the though of sleeping on £30 pounds of pillow did seem like I was kamikaze with my money. W had decent pillows on the top ones we had got from Costco and for 2 pillows it was a good price , I can't remember what exactly but it didn't break the bank. We decided on some firm pillows from Sainsbury's Silent Night ones that were £15 each to put on the bottom in conjunction with the pillows that were ok , one night in it seems to have worked I am not hailing a miracle or anything.

I do think it is important to have a comfortable sleeping height , of course you don't have to have 2 pillows do there is where a deep pillow would come in. I saw a pillow at the supermarket that I had never seen before and it was a heigh adjustable pillow which seemed amazing and that might be the one to go for if you like the one pillow perhaps.


Make sure you're hydrated 

It's essential to drink enough in the day , I try try try not to drink to much tea before bedtime and stick to water or cordial but tea is my weakness I just love it so so much.

Try a Pillow Spray 

I'm trying at the moment a pillow mist from Avon and so far it seems to be working I mean I'm not going to sleep for a hundred years like sleeping beauty ....  You just spritz your pillows and top your quilt before you go to bed and you'll be slipping into a slumber in no time.

Eyejusters Glasses Review And Competition

Mr T has got some new glasses big yay.

He's at that stage where he needs some reading glasses ~ his eye sighted really isn't that terrible but he needs a little help with seeing !

First Glance

First glance they look like any other normal pair of glasses but there is a hidden secret to them which I will reveal to you.

Eyejusters Secret

The pair my husband was sent was a pair of combination glasses in black .You can chose from stainless steel or combination frames  ranging from £69 to £79 that come with high quality finishes, acetate or stainless steel arms and essential to a glasses wearer which comfortable nosepads .

Eyejusters have brought a unique glasses product to the market by using something called a SlideLens

The really clever (James Bond ) type technology bit is the adjustment wheels which are located discreetly behind the frame.

You can adjust each lens independently of each other so allowing for the individual wearers needs , I can think of anyone I know that has the same prescription for each eye.

The lenses are adjustable from between +0.00 to +3.00 Dioptres which should cover mist cases of mild longsightedness.

You don't need any professionals to help you with these glasses as you can adjust yourself till right with a reading test.

See I would love  pair of these myself but I am out of the range for these sadly ! stamps foot !

Mr T loves the glasses !


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Disclosure Mr T was sent a pair to review and Eyejusters are kindly letting me have a pair for a competition 

Dreaming Big With Mulitilotto

I love travel which is why this summer we are heading off to Rome and travel really does give you a lust for life but there's one thing that can get in the way of travel and that's money ! You can have many amazing trips on a limited budget I'm proof of that but just occasionally I do like a holiday blow out if there's a little more cash sitting in my bank account that's not to say I'm frittering all my cash away but I might pick a location that's really special like Washington D.C. I've worked for that cash / husband had worked for it  also ! so it's a reward to us as a family to have a special trip.

But if I was to say win some cash from doing the lottery then at the moment then I'd really like to help my son with his university costs as the costs are horrendous and it seems unfair to them before they've even got going with their lives and careers. And the extra cash would really be a bonus to my son in helping him with his archaeology degree and over the coming years he's going to have to be the master of frugal plus thinking off all those pasta recipes.

Multilotto is where you can bet on lotteries from all round the world but remember you have to be 18 or older to do this. You can play everything from Powerball and Mega Milliins in the USA to the EuroMillions which currently has a jackpot of £25,600,000

Responsible gaming is important that's why Multilotto has such a section which can be accessed from 'My Account' it is imperatively clear that you must be 18 or older to open an account with Multilotto.You can set a wager limit and give yourself a timeout from the account for a time period of your choosing,there is an option to be permanently excluded from the account.

I would love to be one of those people that just happens to find a winning lottery ticket in my handbag that I had long forgotten about! With Multilotto there are many popular games such as EuroMillions ,Powerball also you can play Casino games such as slots,table games ,video poker etc  , there is even a casino school on the site.

Which lottery or casino game would you like to have a go at ?

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