Crossing Blogging Bridges

As a blogger there is nothing worse then staring at a blank page but you put a picture up and immediately everything is transformed , just because it is not the glossy magazine type quality of others it doesn't matter. As bloggers we really should stop comparing ourselves to others , if anything we should take inspiration as comparing ourselves to others really can become self consuming .  After all I have seen those I know who started at the same time at me do very well and that is super and others like myself just stay as we are. If a change is thrust upon us do we lose a bit of who we are or do we gain ? I feel ti s a little bit of both after all it is real life.

Blogging is crafting and they are so many various of blogs nowadays.

If I feel low or just need a break I take myself out and capture the world around be to be inspired , what you do might me different.

I can blog about again I mean if you look back I blogged about my en suite toilet being broke , just in case you were wondering it is still blog and the plumber is coming at 7pm to suck through his teeth and give us his diagnosis. On the school front I am another £35 down for a state school I am finding the whole process of 6th form a very expensive one indeed consequently I am juggling blog design costs for my blog makeover.


I could leave my blog at it is after old it is old faithful and people say leave it we love it  ? I think we all need a little change as it is what keeps us fresh though we do have what keeps us constant in life and blogging.

I have crossed many bridges to get where I am today and I am proud of what I have achieved , still gaining in strength though keeping my eyes out for any frailties.

Where I live inspires my blog and myself so much and I am so lucky to have the countryside / woods on my doorstep.

You know once I had a flash of fame in the blogging world, you might need to sit down for this it was on the Mumsnet Blog Network and the blog subject was on Gnome Knickers , it was a post about Gnomes that wear knickers . I mean I know I am semi rural but we aren't that peculiar round here My Gnome lives upstairs in the bedroom is quite wild out there .



You see blogging for me can take me any where and every and that is how I like it .


I liken blogging to a toddler unpredictable .

A Problem With My Waterworks

A bit of Autumn calm is what I need  , never think oooh my week is going to well as the moment you think that the plumbing gods will throw a spanner in the the water works. This morning I work up to a broken ensued toilet and paddling water  * le sigh . It could be worse

" oh dear holy hedgehogs I have jinxed myself now"

Isn't Autumn marvellous and it us a welcome assault upon the visual senses after the morning I have had .

See friendship like rather like these two conkers it really doesn't matter who the bigger is in the friendship. All that matters is that you support each other as friendship is a fit.

I have so many friendship fits there is no one size fits all !

The Conker Hunter

Ever the readily dressed explorer it is the time of year where I need to go out and hunt conkers. I got my conker hunting kit together and headed out.

 

The pen is in there just in case I have to sign autographs...

Why you ask am I hunting conkers?

Well it is time to renew the conkers in the corners of my sons room to keep the spiders away. They seem to stay away ? ! I haven't seen any spiders holding placards demanding the removal of the conkers. 

There is a set time where in between you closing and opening your eyes when the world freezes , thus occurs primarily at sunset.

Go travel local and you can also be a Conker Hunter and see the freezing of time in a magical sunset.

How Do you Know You are brilliant ?

How would you know you are brilliant if no one told you ?

Being told you are good at something goes such a long way to improving your self confidence and self worth and you feel part of life. you don't feel that you are peeking in on things. We tell our children all the time that they are brilliant * mostly but the lift that you both get from it is amazing.  Being told you are brilliant is a simple kindness that does back itself forward in turn you will tell someone that that brilliant .


The thing that we mustn't do is let self doubt creep in ie put ourselves down .

Beating myself us is what I'm trying to do less of.

I'll let you know how that is going just as long as the cat doesn't run off with my knitting ...

How I can feel

Mental health is something we talk about yet we don't talk about , it can be very hard handling it day day and a battle can be going on in your mind especially if this is coupled with anxiety. I work in a school so obviously I get the the long holidays which is super but it can also be a curse to my mind. I work with wonderful people and it is a superb school but I have to engage myself with more people than I have been used to in the holidays.  And while I did pop to London on my own and this is a huge step it took a lot of courage to do so.


I am talking about the return to routine which if you have a mental health condition you yearn for but at the same time you don't want it . It is very much a double edged sword I feel I have to justify my feelings so much at times to people but all I am simply am going through is a blip . I can't help it at all and nowadays if I am feeling it I make sure I stay away from situations where I could dig myself a very big social media hole.


I should be off to a knitting club later, I have not knitted since I was 7 and I knitted a scarf for my teddy bear , which was very long  ( similar to Doctor Who Tom Bakers )and it is with people which I find worrying at the best of times. I think the cats would like a knitted scarf and wouldn't they look a treat.



Tomorrow I have to go and listen to information about sons sixth form and ask questions ( of which my family told me I am very good at )


You see I know I can be confidant but I dislike being called on when I makes errors I feel so small and embarrassed , some people do seem to take pleasure in correcting others a very erroneous grip on power !


But for now the light is shining though the windows which are clean hurrah ! and I can plot and plan holidays you see I need something to focus on to get me through.