A Problem With My Waterworks

A bit of Autumn calm is what I need  , never think oooh my week is going to well as the moment you think that the plumbing gods will throw a spanner in the the water works. This morning I work up to a broken ensued toilet and paddling water  * le sigh . It could be worse

" oh dear holy hedgehogs I have jinxed myself now"

Isn't Autumn marvellous and it us a welcome assault upon the visual senses after the morning I have had .

See friendship like rather like these two conkers it really doesn't matter who the bigger is in the friendship. All that matters is that you support each other as friendship is a fit.

I have so many friendship fits there is no one size fits all !

The Conker Hunter

Ever the readily dressed explorer it is the time of year where I need to go out and hunt conkers. I got my conker hunting kit together and headed out.

 

The pen is in there just in case I have to sign autographs...

Why you ask am I hunting conkers?

Well it is time to renew the conkers in the corners of my sons room to keep the spiders away. They seem to stay away ? ! I haven't seen any spiders holding placards demanding the removal of the conkers. 

There is a set time where in between you closing and opening your eyes when the world freezes , thus occurs primarily at sunset.

Go travel local and you can also be a Conker Hunter and see the freezing of time in a magical sunset.

How Do you Know You are brilliant ?

How would you know you are brilliant if no one told you ?

Being told you are good at something goes such a long way to improving your self confidence and self worth and you feel part of life. you don't feel that you are peeking in on things. We tell our children all the time that they are brilliant * mostly but the lift that you both get from it is amazing.  Being told you are brilliant is a simple kindness that does back itself forward in turn you will tell someone that that brilliant .


The thing that we mustn't do is let self doubt creep in ie put ourselves down .

Beating myself us is what I'm trying to do less of.

I'll let you know how that is going just as long as the cat doesn't run off with my knitting ...

How I can feel

Mental health is something we talk about yet we don't talk about , it can be very hard handling it day day and a battle can be going on in your mind especially if this is coupled with anxiety. I work in a school so obviously I get the the long holidays which is super but it can also be a curse to my mind. I work with wonderful people and it is a superb school but I have to engage myself with more people than I have been used to in the holidays.  And while I did pop to London on my own and this is a huge step it took a lot of courage to do so.


I am talking about the return to routine which if you have a mental health condition you yearn for but at the same time you don't want it . It is very much a double edged sword I feel I have to justify my feelings so much at times to people but all I am simply am going through is a blip . I can't help it at all and nowadays if I am feeling it I make sure I stay away from situations where I could dig myself a very big social media hole.


I should be off to a knitting club later, I have not knitted since I was 7 and I knitted a scarf for my teddy bear , which was very long  ( similar to Doctor Who Tom Bakers )and it is with people which I find worrying at the best of times. I think the cats would like a knitted scarf and wouldn't they look a treat.



Tomorrow I have to go and listen to information about sons sixth form and ask questions ( of which my family told me I am very good at )


You see I know I can be confidant but I dislike being called on when I makes errors I feel so small and embarrassed , some people do seem to take pleasure in correcting others a very erroneous grip on power !


But for now the light is shining though the windows which are clean hurrah ! and I can plot and plan holidays you see I need something to focus on to get me through.

Happy Place

Happy place is 

Getting the kitchen sorted a itty bit from this

to this 

A bag like this 

A cat in a box 

Dreaming of my bicycle 

Hugging a tree 

Tea 

However an opinion is a where I come unstuck especially when I said " I don't like Moulin Rouge " I suspect I should have sugar coated it with some sort of a back story. You see it takes a hell of a load for me to give an opinion without causing offence .  

And while we are at it I don't like marzipan either ...