Coming Up to D Day

It's crunch time.

It's June.

Again.

That time of the year when things didn't go well for me.

I'll say this yes it is my depression , yes it was my depression , no I am not playing the victim never will do.


I feel I have to say things to justify how I feel , You see I am dealing with my depression through self care and just telling people when I am feeling so so.


I am not blessed with the gift of everyone go ing oooh wow at my blog posts ~ maybe on occasion.

I know my self worth and it is high.


I have had time to relax , reflect and respect myself.


Time is a healer they say.

The date is coming up when I caused people to turn their backs on me. The more I tried to explain the worse it got and what it is IS what it is !


Everyone has a battle they are fighting and I can't hate it is not in my nature, I treat such people as I would the horrible radish with disdain. You can still tolerate people even if there is disdain and that is what sets us apart.


The blogging has helped me though.


Taking time to listen to me allows me time to heal.

The doctor the other week just said "what pills do you want ? mmmm mmmmm"

And told me "Sorry your appointment is only so long "




I choose not to have pills , I don't want this.



Time I choose time but sometimes we don't have enough time for each other.


And we should that person could very well need it .

That person could be me.

That person could be you.




PS I am Ok , but as it is my blog I am SO allowed to write what I like. 

30 Days Wild Connecting with Nature

Yesterday I connected with the wild with nature , I communed as they say with nature  , I did not get lost ,

Never having the same adventure

yet travelling into nature feels like a homecoming and leaving is very much tinged with a sense of loss.

Wandering down the lane

I breathe in the soft summer heavy with the promise of warm weather , I wander to the dip and dive of the swooping house martins that provide an aerial spectacular, I am instilled with a state of the deepest, calmest joy.

I find when I wander that I never find the same route twice, I am absorbed in the environment , with this I have ever felt fitter or more full of Strength and hope.


Skip through the buttercups.

BIG tick

Buttercup meadow

10 Things I Want To Do In The Good Ole Usa

Ten things I want to do in the good ole USA

I've been to the USA more times then you shake a Mickey Mouse tail at , 4 times to the spiritual home of said mouse a magical mouse that snares you in and won't let you explore out as carton bluebird patrol !. I love Disney very much but now I want to see more of the USA , I've seen New York and Macy's parade , adventures calls to me much like the American dream. And I've always wanted to channel my inner Bill Bryson and myself as the new lyrical intrepid wanderer.

1. To go to a diner and have coffee and of course pie ; if you haven't seen Twin Peaks then you must , pie and coffee are as American as they come. Cliched hell yeah but so what it's like us British and afternoon tea.

2. Visit the spot where Martin Luther King spoke from when he gave his "I have a dream " speech nothing is more important than fragile human freedoms. And in August I'm off to Washington DC so this is a certainty !!

3. New England in fall ( our autumn) I am most fortunate to have seen the sweeping colour tapestry of autumnal colour up near Niagara Falls.

4. The Bridges of Madison County having seen the film which I loved and the fact it is about a photographer and the picture perfect bridges. This situation makes me love it all the more and the bridges are frames to undulating vistas.

5. Jazz in up in New Orleans , sample the exquisite cuisine , of course go on a paddle steamer. I could do my Boy George Kama chameleon . I'd love to glide with ubiquitous charm into the 200 year old French quarter.

6. Head to the windy city of Chicago , I've seen the gangster film the untouchables I reckon I go sneak into a speak easy or 2, I would do my best Al Capone accent.

7. San Fransisco shock horror I've never seen Bullit but I have seen Mrs Doubtfire and Princess Diaries ooooh ooooh and the Star Trek movies. The magnificent Golden Gate Bridge ! is an engineering wonder that I need 

8. Mount Rushmore

9 Boston It goes without saying I ow;ld have to have my own Boston tea party, sample the Boston Freedom trail, Boston harbour , just to be immersed in the sights, smells and sounds.

10. LA Bonkers but to see the Hollywood twinkle and see the glittzy faux paux of some would be quite an amusing people watching experience.

Ordinary Me ~ Challenge Myself More Ordinary

I am very ordinary person.

I am unique.

Not everyone can see that I am awesomely ordinary ~ a quirk.


There are those I want forget ~ those splintered by jealously, annoyance, I am not their cup of tea call it what you will.

Those who don't really aren't worth my time and make me doubt myself...


There is a fine line between a friend and a fiend


And as someone pointed on on Facebook it is one letter  from Grin to Gin ~ Genius


My whole life I have been an ordinary womble, I womble about flitting from one project to another I womble ordinaryly. I live , I love ordinary I live to inspire I live ordinary.


I wish I was more exciting  more ordinary YES

With ordinary comes inspiring comes a simple existence comes LIVING 

Blog Maintenance The One Where I Am Not Teaching You to Suck Eggs

Blog Maintenance the one where I am not teaching you to suck eggs.

I am under going some blog maintenance which is a bit like dyeing your hair, shaving ; including the long like yeti hair on your legs, if you are a Greek God or Goddess then please do forgive me. You see for me blogging is fun , yes in those early heady days I got a bit woe is me and poor me and how I bemoaned my situation letting everyone know in the process.

Blogging doesn't have to be so so traumatic we all blog for different strokes and different folks.


I'll impart some of my infinite wisdom to you , you'd like that wouldn't you ?


You still there  ?

Good!

Are you sitting comfortably? ( ps if you have  boil on your bottom then I am sorry) , then we will begin.


It really as simple as this , check what posts you have in draft if you are like me then you will have a gazillion , gazillion for me translates as 48 , now some of these will be a title that is no longer workable or relevant to be so I'll start by thinning those. this will perhaps see me getting down to about 30 let us say.

Then I will work through the others and see if I can turn them into blog posts that I can schedule for the times I am travelling or having an exotic adventure somewhere, between us a cup of time is an exotic glamorous adventure for me, the little things do matter don't they now.

By the time I am finished I have about 8 blog posts that are scheduled to go out , half will be finished and obviously the other half won't . It is essential that in a note book / diary you must may a note of those that you have scheduled, of course you don't have to scudded but a little pressure will keep the content flowing and your creative mind in check.

As you read this I am relaxing in a Spa and having a thoroughly decadent time and as I wrote this before I went away , I can let my words do the work and have a relax. I hopefully have remembered to shave my legs before the Spa but if you hear screaming in the Hampshire area then I am sorry it is all my fault.