The Advancement Of The Inner Self

The title of this reads like one of those mind numbing self help e books or bargain books doesn't it ( makes mental note  to look into this for possible career change) I just thought I would alter how I am a complete 360 on my behaviour and outlook , bare with me it is not a New Year , New Year bull frog piece of carp.

I am still holding into my inner 'teddy bear'

I am not however going to accept being bullied in any shape in real life or on line.

I'm still going to talk to people but I am not going to spread myself thin ( I would love to think myself thin though), I am going to let people come to me for a change. I think quite frankly that some peoples ego don't need any more puffing up, bring loud and brazen doesn't mean you get further though for some folk they will always be sanctimonious.

I still might get sad and woeful and write about depression but hay I'm not trendy enough and my musings do  not resonate ~ well they might for  someone and that is what I'm going to run with.

So what have I noticed since I haven't been so much a go to person on Twitter ~ it reveals I was the conversation chaser , some obviously don't want to interact , yes the world is a busy place but I have my suspicions on what some think of me ( and now I don't care).

I am going to carry on in my way , be as ever random my randomness allows me to discover so many things for my photography,food and recipe development, like minded people and humour, history , acrhictecture archaeology. So I have many strings to my bows , I can and will swap talking form one thing to another this is nervous energy and I won't ever change from this but have learnt to slow down my though process.

I have strength of conviction and won't worry too much much what folk think now , hell the other day I even took gentle ribbing ( all in good taste and it was a good giggle) so where do I go from here , well I make lists now of what i would like to do . Having depression and likely to alway have this is is essential that I have purpose structed in my day , some people are 'it' people and can effortlessly do everything I however am not one of these and will not be part of this pretence.

Changing my appearance I am going to grown my hair , not in an Elsa or Anna type of way though when it stopped I wished I had built a snowmen, no the hair going comes from the delivery man encounter the other day. I answer the door to a delivery man and it was "hello sir" so I think I need to grow my hair , yes you would have though that upper lady bits would have given this away but I guess that day I was channelling my inn 'Tootsie'

So there you have it for now the advancement of my inner self of which I will add to revaluate over the coming weeks and years.

Oh and if you want to talk to me I am @needaphone on twitter.

Crafting In The New Year

Imagine if I didn't go with the flow , yet sometimes I go against it and why not ?

I blog as mentioned before on a whim and a prayer , I don't have a word for  this year , for the more I would think about it , then January would be well and truely over.

Having scone and tea in a field .

Monday for me will be going to see the little Shetland ponies ( I'm allergic to horses and once stayed on a horse farm by mistake ended up in A & E )

Tuesday will be a picnic and hot chocolate in the woods ( last year I could last in the woods and my husband had to come home for the Tesco delivery , I was lost in the woods for 3 hours.)

Wednesday I may hum along to a one direction song , I repeat you tell no one of this .

Thursday trying to explain to the cat for the umpteenth that it can sleep in the new bed without the cardboard box , it's ok Binky Bear will protect you.

Friday I may attempt my nemesis: the Victoria Sponge cake, I've no idea why it feels me with dread but it does. I think it is in the baking matrix do you dare go down that rabbit hole?

Also pencils in looking at YouTube crochet videos ~ non nanna mode.

Recycling old Christmas cards not into gift tags but into new cards.

Dreaming Of Springtime I Am

I like all seasons really.

Winter sees that shaft of light than comes to glow twice for life.

And as the sun goes down the neighbourhood cats are out to prowl

Though it may be cold , the outside heightens the senses.

The Revolution Of Bletchley Park

I could do three good things in a day but that really isn't me , different strokes for different folks as they say . I always have a fear that things are going to go wrong , for instance I wonder why people like me , silly I know. I have never really achieved resolutions and when I have found I do it has been half hearted .

So knickers !

I'm going to go out revolutions today's revolution was to not be on my mobile until I got to my destination which was Bletchley Park, so often my nose is in a digital device , I know the irony of going to visit somewhere steeped in the history of computers and code breakers is not lost on me.

I feel wonderful to be outside again , I even managed to clap my eyes on Beneduct Cumberbatch ... 

If you head over to Bletchley Park there is a display of some of the props used in the cracking film.

The world is a better place for the brilliance of Alan Turing , he achieved much in his short life and we all owe him our debt.

My owned grandad worked at Dollis Hill never said what he did , official secret act and all that. Even when he could say he didn't old fashioned silent hero to the every end of his life.

And as ever I'm all about the bunting oh yes , bunting is the eternal cheerer upper !

More bunting that you can shake a stick at !

And no trip to Bletchley Park would complete without seeing Colasses and Tuny, we quite simply would not personal computers,smart phones and tablets without these.

Revolutions are fun : Space Invaders fun

Day 1 in The Big Brother Turkey Household

There are countless Turkey recipes about this time of year , and yes I'm looking at them , no it wasn't me that ordered a Turkey for 11 when there are 3 of us , well maybe it was. Adopts big brother voice :

Day 1 

In  big Turkey household "gobble,gobble", the Turkey was cooked,  carved and consumed , slight nagging feeling something was missing . Note to self make own gravy next time and don't own Heston Blumenthal gravy , which was thicker than a nuns wimple ( forgiveness shoutout from any nuns reading ) 

Day 2

Turkey rolls (crusty) mayonnaise with a side order of BBQ hola hoops complete with organic Spanish cucumber ole . Looks for Bailey can't find it , drinks white wine descends into Swedish chef mode .

Day 3

Turkey ephinany , the missing item was cranberry sauce , much serving of Turkey again in crusty rolls with cranberry sauce with iceberg lettuce and teeny tiny pork pies, organic cucumber ole . The Baileys  still missing , oh look festive Gin and T. Ruddy . Turkey for tea this time minced and served in a picnic loaf ......

Day 4 

I think the natives will revolt ...