No one likes a sad bunny #depression

No one likes a sad bunny.

Not literally that no one likes a sad bunny but depression.


I thought the other day "We can't all be Stephen Fry" where he seems to get the understanding but then I realised it's bringing depression into the public area, and I adore Stephen Fry he is a witty and intelligent fellow and we all handle depression in our own way.


Then there was Bill Oddie who said that celebrities were making mental illness fashionable , everyone is entitled to their opinion for all the people that will agree there will be those who don't.

This is where I say "My name is Claire and I have depression "


Depression 

"I don't except you to understand."


"I don't except you to care."



"I have low self esteem & self confidence  "



"I am weirding you out "

"Weirding out that situation where I try to explain myself, the more I do , the worse I dig my hole"

"Friends walking away , is hard to handle "


"Knowing I am liked and have friends helps me"


"When my world is rocked feeling out of control like friends walking away or me  worrying about the littlest thing"

"You can't handle my depression , you've problems of your own"

"Knowing I will be ok "


I am learning to have empathy with people in a smiler boat or those who have similar problems.

Remember you can help friends and family with depression.

Disclosure "I realised I should have used the phrase black dog but whilst the black dog is the universally know figure for depression I am much more at home with a sad bunny it fits my humour"

Black And White Positive Negative

I thought that a foray into black and white wouldn't be good really for me at the minute being a rather down ( depressed ) you would have thought I would what to surround myself in myriads of colours. Tripping my self on a light fantastic rainbow but no I am dabbling with black and white and it is not to jump in any bandwagon, it is something I have dabbled with from time to time.

I think with back and white you can see the crispness of architecture and the lines of past formalities and coming from a conservation background ( though ) I have never worked in this field I hold a dear love of architecture, and I do hold a university qualification in this field.

Ordinarily one might take a picture in colour and then alter in pic monkey but I decided to shot some pictures in raw black and white with my Panasonic, I will get out later this week and have a go with the Nikon.

I am grateful and respectful that have helped and taught me in the ways of photography, the thing you see I know what know what I am doing , not all the technical gubbins there is always more to learn I feel and you never stop learning. I feel what I do , I feel it, I see it , I take the shot there will be the obvious feet shot if I am on my iPhone but I compose myself and that is leading to inner calm.

People say I am good at photography ?! I am awfully modest I do what I do because I love it and I won't ever stop loving it. Not being one for emotion and trying to quantify why has gone off recently I am finding my way.

Black and white is the positive negative , I do so hope you will stay with me for the long haul.

The lodge of a long forgotten manor.

The village church in black and white

I love lanes they draw you on!

The river gentles flows.

Silent Lane

We are all Striving

We are all striving to be the best we can be , to live our lives for ourselves and for our children. Life is somewhat a cliche, sometimes it is a blink of a eye and your children are grown up and have flown the nest.

Recent events have jiggered me off the road of life , eyes of the ball ... there I am again cliching.

I can.

Either keep apologising for my mistakes or buckle down and concentrate on what is around me.

Depression is very self absorbing, yet if you don't understand me , then you might understand other folk with it.

I'm not going have any more damage.

And while you are thinking it's hard to let your little one go to school , thinking on that all they can achieve.

I'm now at the stage where my son is at the twilight of his school years but whilst there is a twang of sadness as he 's my only one.

Without my 'life' mistakes he wouldn't  be the wonderful caring human being he is today ,and if you have a problem then 'he' might just be the one that helps YOU.

Under A Harvest Sky

Under a harvest Sky.


Under a harvest sky I wander.

Waiting for a farmers harvest,

From dawn till dusk,

Summer brings a fraught drought,

My soul leaps thereabouts,

While I amble,

The farmers toil,

Back upon Autumn to till the soil,

The sun peeks through upon the village quiet,

My work photographing is never done,

Like the farmers tends his earth forever more ,

Working against the disparity of mother nature.

We are the caretakers, the movers and the wakers.