I 've just read a blog post that sums me up who would have thought it that people can be so similar.
I try not to worry but you know what like its like I hate social situations, I hate them to a T I worry will I say the right thing , do the right thing it all goes through my mind. I have an abject fair of letting me down people down its worry I know . Yet despite this I am off to the Ideal Home Show Earls court and that is abloody very big place. And yet I'll be alone going round ...
I have a flight or flight response to life and 80 percent of the times its flight, get me in a crowded bar and I am off like a racehorse down the track. Put me in the right situation and I am ok if I am someone with me no an emotional crutch but just a wing man. I ramble as well my brain thinks to fast and I trip over my own words half the time.
I am more confident but only because I put myself into situations .. I can't be something that I 'm not yet I have to be.
I look confident... and I am contented.. BUT
I wish and I feel why can't I be the person with more friends sometimes the one that people throng to ..
WHO knows..
Life is very hard to rationalise isn't it now.
Somethings seem to stick to you through life .. like school bullying.
I was bullied the bespectacled swot who liked school except for the bullying.
Like when your classmates did a poll of who liked you or when you were kicked in just before going into a GCSE exam.
But I find people who have suffered this go one of three ways they are either are SO bouncy like Tigger or they go SO quiet the world doesn't know they are there. Or perhaps like me they are stuck in the middle with an tendency to swing between the Tigger and quiet mouse mood.
Sometimes I wonder what reality I am in ... Do't worry I am not losing my marbles or anything .. and anyway I found them yesterday.
And I have had mental health issues in the past yet I find people who have similar quite funnily and rightly so don't want to be reminded by a screaming bowl of bananas the world can be a crazy place.
SO its a thumbs up for me next time I'll be panicking is on the tube to Earls court and getting directions from a member of staff .. * it saves time and helps me not to panic *
* I do contradict myself somewhat ....
I try not to worry but you know what like its like I hate social situations, I hate them to a T I worry will I say the right thing , do the right thing it all goes through my mind. I have an abject fair of letting me down people down its worry I know . Yet despite this I am off to the Ideal Home Show Earls court and that is a
I have a flight or flight response to life and 80 percent of the times its flight, get me in a crowded bar and I am off like a racehorse down the track. Put me in the right situation and I am ok if I am someone with me no an emotional crutch but just a wing man. I ramble as well my brain thinks to fast and I trip over my own words half the time.
I am more confident but only because I put myself into situations .. I can't be something that I 'm not yet I have to be.
I look confident... and I am contented.. BUT
I wish and I feel why can't I be the person with more friends sometimes the one that people throng to ..
WHO knows..
Life is very hard to rationalise isn't it now.
Somethings seem to stick to you through life .. like school bullying.
I was bullied the bespectacled swot who liked school except for the bullying.
Like when your classmates did a poll of who liked you or when you were kicked in just before going into a GCSE exam.
But I find people who have suffered this go one of three ways they are either are SO bouncy like Tigger or they go SO quiet the world doesn't know they are there. Or perhaps like me they are stuck in the middle with an tendency to swing between the Tigger and quiet mouse mood.
Sometimes I wonder what reality I am in ... Do't worry I am not losing my marbles or anything .. and anyway I found them yesterday.
And I have had mental health issues in the past yet I find people who have similar quite funnily and rightly so don't want to be reminded by a screaming bowl of bananas the world can be a crazy place.
SO its a thumbs up for me next time I'll be panicking is on the tube to Earls court and getting directions from a member of staff .. * it saves time and helps me not to panic *
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