Countryside Is The Minds Harmony

What gives you serenity after a bad day ?

What stops you blowing

 everything out of all proportation ?

I like life on a even keel just tootling along , occasionally yes I will venture out to the big smoke and lose my self in an museum or an event , but my heart compass sets me back to the countryside. I have had what I can only describe as 2 irksome days. Which has made me realise that I need to be less cavlaier in my trust of people and perhaps I am too friendly I bounce in like a Labrador if I am honest.  I am more people's cup of tea than I realise and quite frankly I could have spiralled down after the last 2 days but I didn't, I do however have to get stuff out of my system by talking it out. 

Countryside is my salvation.

Countryside is the minds harmony.

Friendship has always been hard for me and being trusted I have come to realise is a coping mechanism for this, some friends are for the long haul and some are for pockets of time. Not everyone can be your friend or will be your friend and I don't expect that.

I have forever friends I really do and I know I can trust them with my heart but I will be more guarded that is for sure. It is a shame to lose a friend and you never know what battle someone is fighting , hell I know I am. I do have a lot going on in my life and I hold my hands up and have asked for the help I need.

I have come so far since last year and I am not going back no way.

My heart may still be on my sleeve but I will choose to out it there.

And this is not a needy post , neither am I playing the victim I am striving for me. I may stumble but believe me when I say I will not fall.

Having A Cat Means

10 Things to Forty They Didn't Tell You About !

So you have just turned forty , you are either buoyant as you no doubt have done a bucket less of fabulous things to do before you are forty or you are having a major panic leading up to and self medication ( responsibly with gin)

You have been told it doesn't hurt , that forty is the new 21 and your life is in front of you , but what life you start to wonder when the cake and party popper have disappeared. The odd things start to happen and you start to brush them off , it couldn't be happening could it like after having a good giggle with your brain flicking a sanity switch on and off.

1. You start needing reading glasses but it is OK your mum worse those but then you remember her peering over the rims at you .

2. Mini is no longer a skirt but a jolly fun car that you'd quite like to own as you tootle down to the Woman's Institute meeting.

3. At the doctors you  skip over the fashion magazine and start to look at the recipe magazines , after all you now go shopping in your sunglasses.

4. After preparing the salad you  nearly wash up with the cucumber ~ which isn't as effective as a washing up brush it appears.

5. You put the weetabix on a dinner plate ~ it's OK you like being grown up and eating as if you are a a posh restaurant.

6. When shopping you bypass the thong section in the lingerie department as they won't hold the Tenna lady.

7. The next big birthday is 50  arrrrgh you are just getting into fluffy slipper mode .

8. The realisation perhaps you've always been 40 at heart as you like flat sensible shoes and when you do try high heels you look like a dominatrix.

9. The tabloids you know about the Kashadians and the one shaped like a bottle of Mateus rose  the internet  sensation that nearly broke the internet. 

10 You are more patient as you grew up loading Spectrum 48 k games that is real skill in learning patiance.

How Do You Measure Yourself ?

How Do you measure yourself ?

I don't mean measuring yourself height wise , I mean do you measure yourself against other people?,  it is something I do with extreme caution as your can walk the thin line with your confidance and I am not the jealous type .I always try to be the best I can be and I really don't like to have any situation unresolved.

Healthy competition is good but don't let it overtake your life and worse still your kids life , now I don't have the competive aspect of the playground to deal with. 

My values is one thing I don't measure against other people , and whilst I am quite open in my blogging I do hold back . They say you should never work with animals or children , well I'm a teaching assistant and I have cats so that didn't quite go to plan.


Also I measure myself in tea levels as if I don't have enough tea I really can not function very well.

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